A recent dance with sadness may reignite a spark of gladness to see you through the madness! Yeah okay, I started with a rhyme, it's not a crime. I don't do it all the time! Okay, ok I will behave myself. Sadness comes from many avenues in the mind's chaotic city, a network of conflicting electrodes and chemicals power your sentient grid. Sadness can be as simple as feeling no one loves you! It can be complicated as well, brought on by others and their behavior or lack of towards you! I often try and curb my emotions, I feel they are a weakness when not held in check, plus it is easier to deal with the ying when you are not getting any of the yang! Sadness can be of unknown origin, a "just because" you could say. To me the worst form of sadness is born of frustration!

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Frustration is as unique to an individual as fingerprints are! Everyone's frustration manifests in different ways, partly because of the human condition, and because of the diverse nature of the causes. One cause we all know to well is "losing faith" in others! What happens inside you as a person, when a person you know, like, respect or even love does not treat you right? Anger, the "shields up" defense of sadness! Retaliatory by nature and brutal when set in motion! Anger, a human emotion as much a part of us all as want and need! The law does not recognize the human condition very well. It often protects those that deserve righteous accountability! Which is a cause of frustration for anyone with a conscience!

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I meet people every day that frustrate me! People who don't want to help themselves. People who think they are better than others and they are not! People who routinely dismiss your wants and needs as if they didn't matter! Mistrust where there should be trust, and trust where there should be mistrust! "Boys in Bikinis and Girls on Surfboards", yeah, it's a messed up confused cauldron of humanity we seem to all be partnered in. For whom stirs the cauldron aye? (British accent)

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You know who else I meet? I meet the people that give me gladness! The people who help keep me from madness! How about you? My escape is writing, photography and the perfprming! I am lucky after all these years to have found a community that I live and fight for! How about you? Grab on to the feelings that bring happiness, don't gauge them by others opinion. Afterall, how are they to know what it is like being you when they are them? The weirdest things from others' perspective bring me happiness! I like being so sore from a workout it hurts to move! I like catching a bright half-moon as it peeks through the swaying branches of my high trees! It is easy to get twisted up inside! Life is short and regret is an ugly doppelganger to carry around.

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Madness is that moment when you feel your emotional wall cave, your body actually buckles as you are overcome with the suddenness! That moment when you just give up inside! The moment when you are capable of great self-destruction! I have felt deep sadness, I have been on the brink of madness! You all know what I feel, for that is another common bond for us all. We all have been on the brink of despair, some longer than others. If you don't like being sad then stop making others that way! If you like being glad, then be glad for others! If you don't like being mad, then go to sad and work your way back!